This Scorpio season has kind of felt like walking through our own personal haunted house: surrounded by relics of days gone past, the ghosts of our former selves conjure up phantasmic visions, weaving together lie upon lie, until we are caught in a web of harrowing distortion regarding who we really are, what has happened, and where our lives are potentially headed. Often times, we enter this house completely willingly without realizing it—despite the discomfort and anxiety of reliving our worst fears, our minds CHOOSE them because they are familiar. Predictable. And, in that sense, safe. It's in these moments when we feel the ground begin to shake that we actually hold on to our fears for comfort, because, well ... been there, done that, right?
It's a habit that ultimately boils down to a belief that power (or, in this case, empowerment) equals control. However, trying to control things—our environment, ourselves, potential outcomes—in order to remain in our power, is honestly where the real phantasm is born. Empowerment and "safety" (I mean, what does that really mean anyway ...) does not come from adapting all of life to our fears, no matter how well-founded; it comes from an unshakable sense of self-reliance in our ability to think, act, and feel in the moment, no matter what that moment may bring. In other words: we are as powerful and capable as we are able and willing to TRUST—ourselves, at the very least.
Admittedly, it is easier (or at least more automatic) to assume and project a familiar, sucky pattern, than to open up space for something new. But, what if, this time, we chose to ignore the howling ghouls in the hallway and simply ... walk out? Sure, there are no guarantees that there won't be some kind of pain or disappointment waiting for us on the other side, but those feelings shouldn't even be the issue anyway (despite us so often getting stuck there). Failing at something can be painful, mistakes can be painful, rejection can be painful (hell, even mediocrity can be painful)—but do those things define you? They don't have to. You can choose to believe the story you create about yourself based on those things if you want to and become your own self-fulfilling prophecy ... or you can allow those feelings to rise up and pass through you, remembering that who you really are lies within the choice to either give up or to keep going. To stay in the haunted house ... or to risk life itself. ;)
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