A Man's World

The foundation of esoteric theory is the polarity of the masculine and feminine principle. Both are equal—equally valuable, equally powerful, equally necessary. Two sides of the same coin, the paradox of opposites inherent in Singularity ...

And yet, today I want to predominantly express a feminine perspective. This perspective is not limited to biological females, in my opinion, as we all have the essence of both within us and can relate to each in various ways; however, I do think it is one that has been accentuated, at least for me, due to simply being and living as a woman.

And that perspective is tired. Tired of rushing, tired of pushing, tired of producing, tired of competing, tired of analyzing and having to have proof and good reason for every little thing that I say and do in my life. I don't want to have to justify the way that I feel, what I believe to be true, the things I imagine and how I allow myself to dream. I want to be accepted and good enough as I am in this moment, for a moment. I want my heart to expand and share its essence without fear of being crushed—crushed by judgement, misunderstanding, invalidation, rigidity, dogma, pressure, standards, ...

I'm not saying that some of these things are inherently bad (or biologically male) and we should do away with them completely—not at all! I love my mind and its desire to discern, and I deeply acknowledge the need for the masculine in myself and life in general. But in many areas it has just become too much and I neglect the feminine within me. In others, it is the feminine that has taken over and become overbearing, but that's not what today, the 8th of March, is about for me. I'm not writing this to make a political statement, to demonize men or the masculine in general and make myself a victim—I simply want to express. To let it out. Be seen. Be heard. Make music, make art, ... to truly feel my heart in all its joy and sadness. Simply because. The act itself is the empowerment and validation I seek. 🌸🧚‍♀️✨




"Tender tendrils, reaching
Space converges, the senses seethe ... 
Alone in the corridor
Dissolving
Petals of the past rain down."

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